3.30am Great-no sleep again

Sat morning didnt go out last night to wet and miserable and guess what woke at 2 with a stupid headache can't win. Thats 2 mornings in a row woke early.

Roads were lethal yesterday sheet ice everywhere safer by far to walk but even then so slippery I ended up taking my shoes off walking barefooted after a few mins feet were numb so didnt feet a thing...till they started to thaw that is-felt like a fool but would have looked bigger fool lieing on my arse in middle of street. It had frozen then rain started about 3....might add 24 hrs later and still heavy rain so will be good for the lakes and power stations.

Son rung breifly yesterday and he has missed the ugly house thank god chasing another but I have no details on that will ring him Sunday afternoon 5 weeks Sunday till baby due I dont know why I am getting nervouse I wont get to hold it for months yet.

Got home from work yesterday and hubby had been busy cleaning-it was his day off and he couldnt do what he wanted cause of the rain-he had scrubbed kitchen floor on his hands and knee and each tile induvidually(not sure how else you would clean a floor but anyway) then cleaned top of oven and benches and washed walls and cupboard doors I had to put my sunny's on to look it sparkled so...I said what is this gonna cost-well as it happens he said "have a seat I want to ask u something-do you think we can afford a wide screen 42"telly...my answer was a very firm NO-OH but if we got it at Noel Leemings it could be deffeered payments till 2009(think it was I had stopped listening by then) it was still a firm NO. He has this little buzz every now and then the answer is always NO but he is a trier he could have paid cash for it with motorbike money and I'd have said yes but no that was spent on train stuff.

Picked up another 2 weeks work end Aug begin Sept so that will be good help pay for my trip to Sydney in Oct to see the baby.

I set myself another challenge for this week but didnt start so good.Challenge is-Will walk at least 30 mins aday but with roads so lethal yesterday didnt do 30 mins had big plans for the treadmill BUT nothing happened there-so later in the morning when it gets lighter(had started to write when sun gets up but dont think sun will be out today) I will walk in morning and again in afternoon...need to go post some parcels that should have done yesterday so that will be 30mins round trip....one of parcels is return of Turbo Jam DVD only used it once so waste of money return it and spend the 120 on something else oh now what I wonder maybe clothes hehehehe. Of course I am keeping the free gift which actually is a DVD of second work out so really still have the basic workout if and when I get the buzz again it was good and fun I just didnt do it with knee and all. Fit ball still hasn't arrived should be here early next week-I hope.

Not looking good for me getting cheap seats on grab-a-seat to Palmerston Nth will be making booking on Wed regardless Payday.

Right wonder if I can find any more sleep in that bed-the panodol seem to have kicked the headache.

Toottles

ok tonight is tough

night nibbles are haunting me...i am feeling tired and finding it hard to stop thinking that I want food. Have been guzzling water and cleaned my teeth to stop me WANTING food...guessing it is the salty corned beef..not to self stay away from corned silverside.

Took some clothes to a friend to get altered today...altering entails making smaller gotta be a good thing. These tops were looking sloppy and I liked them so much and not ready to off load them on trade me so taking them in.

Got results of my wee op last week and nothing sinister so that is good news, get stitches out Friday...must be mending cause its pulling and snagging on clothes.

Made an appointment for colour and foils for 1st Aug.

Final of Prison Break on soon or else I'd go to bed to fight the nibbles...might go pick up knitting needles and finish my scarf. Good help me husband has just come in can I get him some tinned fruit..I told him no he can get them himself.

HOLY CRAP its cold out there didnt linger long getting home I can tell you.
Went to School play it was side splitting hillerious tears streaming down face and face and belly so sore from laughing. Well done guys!!! The creche did dinner and then the play so a really great night...I didnt know I was going until 5.30 so a big rush but as I had turned off the crockpot this morning instead of turning it down needless to say no cornbeef for tea so ready for tomorrow night. Threw some meat in oven for hubby and some veges in pot changed my clothes and out the door.
Stayed same on scales tonight at weight management so that is good not sure what my home scales are doing they say a gain of 3 plus k
Took knee to doc this morning she says I've done my cartlidge(sp) so ain't that just grand...will slow my walking down, she suggested biking I said it bloody near killed me biking when did the 63k ride last month she said I was bloody mad biking that far, I agreed with her. A couple k here and there walking shouldnt hurt it too much..she is refering me to a specialist all the same.

Still no night nibbles but off to bed now so temptation doesnt over come me.

nite nite

Day 5 nearing its end

OF NO NIGHT NIBBLES

Have had a great day cleaning house kitchen and lounge now clean.

Washing all got nice and dry this time of year is AWESOME still a bit of snow about bbut after the lovely day a great thaw.

Son rung to say he is keen to buy a terrace house ick hope he misses out on it but knowing Anthony he'll hound it till it is his. He also talked me thru downloading music for ipod so since 6 have been down loading songs to computer.

Lamb casserole is prepared for tomorrow tea. Had scrummy satay beef last night with brown rice and steamed broccolli, courgettes, carrots, green beans and corn.

Work all week this week.

Went out Friday night drinks happy hour Saturday I pledged to drink orange for a while the old body can;t take to much more of this. Hubby came too which was nice and he chatted with lots of folks and seemed to enjoy himself hope he comes again soon. We went onto Pizza place for tea but to be honest I have no knowledge of what pizza was like. Got home about 11 and it was let me say a rough night and slow Saturday. Did manage a walk about 3.30 sat arvo and felt a lot better for the fresh air. Felt so good in my new flash clothes above buggered if I can ever get pics to go to the part of page I want them to go..also nice grey trous from Farmers I felt great.

Its snowing

V pretty when its falling so long as it doesnt linger for weeks like last year. Went for 40 min walk this morning and few flakes started faling about half way round by time I got home from of my lavender polarfleece top was white...isnt polarfleece just the best stuff warm light and waterproof to a point I love it pity it wasn't alittle more flatering. Knee held out till about last 10mins of walk and started biting so hopefully with resting other leg its helping knee too.

Well I did it had tea last night and didnt eat after yeah yippee I went in kitchen about 10 made a coffee (but that isnt food) and picked up an orange and nah can't(no not can't don't want) have that I not eating after tea put it back...made hubby's lunch made coffee and closed the door to kitchen. 1 day down. Now I am assuming no night snacking doesn't give free reins to scoffing face all day does it. I will have an orange for my mid afternoon snack.

Was payday yesterday broke again today boohoo after paying bills none left for Felicity-well that isnt actually intirely true did flick a hundred to the credit card, but that was after using $250 of 'my' money to pay the flippen rates gggrrrr should be mine to spend on me.

be back later

l8ta

well snow has stopped for now actually stopped about 7.30 had about 5 maybe 6 inches...sure hope it doesnt freeze over night else it will be deadly.

I have showered and cleaned my teeth so ready for a second night of no after tea nibbles.

Had couple of nice phone calls today-my girlfriend in Palmerston Nth(going up couple days earlier than party and gonna catch up with her) She was sounding so good-her hubby died year ago in April. Then Anthony(my son) rung he sounds so excitied about house sale and baby etc then another friend in Chch rung me tonight so a popular chickee babe today.

Got a busy day tomorrow.

11.30 have a swear now won't that be fun

2-5 work got a call about 6 tonight asking me to work pain in butt really as I had afternoon tea with friends to go to at 3 but when work calls I have to take it I got a trip to Palmerston Nth to pay for hehehe
5 is happy hour at local and we are meeting for drinks with friend its her b/day tomorrow hubby is coming(well unless he wiggles out of it like usual) then depending on how things go depends on what I do next...have dancing lessons at 7.30 but if others go for a meal I might flag dancing.

Telly is playing up tonight Sky channal won't change so only can watch tv1 or tv2 so might have to have an early night.

small changes

TONIGHT I AM NOT GOING TO EAT AGAIN.
I am not nibbling tonight.

I made an investment in my health and fitness today I bought a fitness ball off the telly $29.95
http://www.coresecrets.co.nz/CoreSecrets_NZ/

I had a wee op on my leg yesterday had a lump removed so today decided no walking today but back into it tomorrow.

Thick fog the last few days grey freezing cold and miserible but its winter what can we expect.

Rung a couple of dear friends today and was great catching up and nattering few laughs

Had a txt from my son in Sydney..my grand baby to be in August's father..they listed there house to sell 8 days ago and its sold today so that is great news and he is pleased as punch they got there asking price.

Palmerston North trip plans are coming together.

ok need to go fill my water bottle and make hubby his lunch for tomorrow then settle down to prison break
Cheerio all

I'm coming to Palmerston North

all going well I am coming up for Chris's party so excited...nothing has been finalised yet but bed is booked and flights checked and as soon as paid July I'll book seats. To hell with groceries hehehe we can live on baked beans for a month..why would I have 28 cans in pantry heehehe
right off to work while I'm standing there bored senceless I'll think of the pay going to my trip.

When I said to hubby I was going to P/N his reply was 'WHAT' but u r going to Australia too I never go anywhere..I said he could have come is he hadn't spent his money on train stuff...he then siad I guess u can spent your money how u want...wasnt that good of him. I was anyway.

on a lighter note-but must keep in mind

had hoped all the little pictures and setting would have copied too but haven't and no time to adjust-this was sent to me this morning and bought a smile to my tired and wrinkly face It is worth sharing and gets that other depressing dribble off the front of my blog.

CURTAIN RODS---- PRICELESS She spent the first day packing her belongings into boxes, crates and suitcases. On the second day, she had the movers come and collect her things. On the third day, she sat down for the last time at their beautiful dining room table by candle-light, put on some soft background music, and feasted on a pound of shrimp, a jar of caviar, and a bottle of spring-water. When she had finished, she went into each and every room and deposited a few half-eaten shrimp shells dipped in caviar into the hollow of the curtain rods. She then cleaned up the kitchen and left. When the husband returned with his new girlfriend, all was bliss for the first few days. Then slowly, the house began to smell. They tried everything; cleaning, mopping and airing the place out. Vents were checked for dead rodents and carpets were steam cleaned. Air fresheners were hung everywhere. Exterminators were brought in to setoff gas canisters, during which they had to move out for a few days and inthe end they even paid to replace the expensive wool carpeting. Nothing worked. People stopped coming over to visit. Repairmen refused to work in the house.The maid quit. Finally, they could not take the stench any longer and decided to move. A month later, even though they had cut their price in half, they couldnot find a buyer for their stinky house. Word got out and eventually even the local realtors refused to returntheir calls. Finally, they had to borrow a huge sum of money from the bank to purchase a new place. The ex-wife called the man and asked how things were going. He told her the saga of the rotting house. She listened politely and saidthat she missed her old home terribly and would be willing to reduce her divorce settlement in exchange for getting the house back.. Knowing his ex-wife had no idea how bad the smell was, he agreed on a price that was about 1/10th of what the house had been worth, but only ifshe were to sign the papers that very day. She agreed and within the hour his lawyers delivered the paperwork. A week later the man and his girlfriend stood smiling as they watched themoving company pack everything to take to their new home........ And to spite the ex-wife, they even took the curtain rods!!!!! I LOVE A HAPPY ENDING, DON'T YOU?!
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absent without leave

I havent posted in forever thanks to those who have contacted me.

Don't bother reading rest it is all just so piterful.

I am alive but doing so good oh the weight hasn't suffered yet but if I dont pull my self together soon that may suffer(last night pizza and ice cream will help there). I just can't be bothered with anything I get up and go to work if I have to but if I am not working I blob about and do bugger all. I can't decide what to do about my life and married because I dont know what I want do I want to be bothered with this marriage. It has been a constant up hill battle all of the 12 yrs but of late I just cant be bothered...he doesnt hit me he doesnt drink he doesnt screw around on me he doesnt screw around with me for that matter but that is like to much information he comes home from work each night and doesnt do much of anything we dont talk about anything oh I hear about his day at work that is a bit like the add on telly with the baby has been titchy all day and dad walks in talks about his day and baby is a sleep instantly have no idea what they are advertising he shows ABSOLUTELY NO interest in wat I do. None of these things have happened over night its just that as my weight has come off I have changed, I am no longer that blob that nobody cared about least of all me I now go out and see that I can have a good time(albeit sometimes with to many wines) I expect to be treated nicely and taken notice of. I am bored I actually feel the same way as I did b4 I was married nobody gives a toss about how I feel...I get more interest shown to me about my well being from the cyber world than I do from my husband how sad is that I love u guys but for f***sake I am married. I know marriage isnt flowers and horse drawn carriage rides off into the sunset but I sure as hell didn't sign up for this either. Moan groan...I have just taken some evening primrose tabs maybe I need a tonic hehehe perhaps with some gin in it. I ask hubby to come out with me but he comes up with some excuse he can't go...I have said that I think he doesn't want to be seen out with me. I go to my events and he has time off he travells to other end of country. He went to chch thrus back frid I wasnt asked if I wanted to go I wouldnt have minded a trip to town. We are always strapped for money I spend to much of it travelling to my events he sold a motor bike and got 3 grand spent most of it on stuff for his train...I thought we might have paid some bills with it. (I spent $40 on clothes from trademe and feel guilty stuff it why should I far as I can tell clothes ya need, maybe not as many as I have but that is beside the point, train stuff ya dont and guess what he hasnt even got track to runn the f***ken thing on one engine alone cost 600 bucks) I don't put much into looking after the house and it shows because I honestly don't care anymore how the house looks. But do I want to live alone again do I want to loose my house can I be bothered moving(I have thought often it would be great to be closer to Chch to these events) but I know that selling and divorse are 2 of the most stressfull things and can lead to weight gain I am NOT gaining back I am wanting to continue on the path to slimness. I have to learn to suck it in and go with the flow....and really would it be any different

Ok if u have read to this far I am so v sorry to have put all this crap in here and hope to write something more positive in a day or so to rid this from top of page but this is just how I feel and really has been why I havent written anything b4.